Haru Haru (Day by Day)

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Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you

I was so wrong, forgive me

Ah ah ah ah

My broken heart like a wave

My shaken heart like a wind

My heart vanished like smoke

It can't be removed like a tattoo

I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in

Only dusts are piled up in my mind

(Say goodbye)

Yeah, I thought I wouldn't be able to live even one day without you

But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought

You don't answer anything as I cry out "I miss you"

I hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless

What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?

Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?

I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can't get close nor try to talk to you

I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times

[Chorus]

Don't look back and leave

Don't find me again and live (on)

Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories

I can bear it in some way

I can stand in some way

You should be happy if you are like this

I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)

Oh girl I cry, cry

You're my all, say goodbye... 

If we pass by each other on the street

Act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to

If you keep thinking about our past memories

I might go look for you secretly

Always be happy with him, (so) I won't ever get a different mind

Even smallest regret won't be left out ever

Please live well as if I should feel jealous

You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud

Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened

[Chorus]

I hope your heart fees relieved

Please forget about me and live (on)

Those tears will dry completely

As time passes by

It would've hurt less if we didn't meet at all (mm)

Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby

I pray for you

[Chorus]

Oh girl I cry, cry

You're my all, say goodbye, bye

Oh my love don't lie, lie

You're my heart, say goodbye

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Guess you're very pissed off with me now. I never have a good ending even after broke up, how much I hope we can stay friends, i never manage to stay friends with my ex after broke up, I'm so bad in ending, why do I have to do something that people will get angry at me. I don't wanna be enemy with anyone, believe it or not I really doesn't mean things I said when I'm angry. I'm still so poor in controlling my anger and those hurtful words.

I never say that I don't wanna be friends with you, hope you can give me a chance to explain myself. Whether you see this or not, I just wanna explain everything. 

From the first week of our date, I already know we won't last long. I didn't remind myself of that, in fact i turn everything around convincing myself that we will be together, cause our first two weeks of outing were really sweet and at that point I really started to think that we will last long. You were right, all the time I'm the one who can't accept the fact and we both know that we can't be together. 

Hurt now is better than sooner, you are right again. I'm just too stubborn to let go, to be more precise, I don't wanna let go. That was before, but now I know I have to let go. You sneaking out is a nightmare for you every time you go home, it become worse whenever he checks on you and whenever he calls when you're with me. I always said I know how you feel, truth is I know, but I still doing things that let you feel the same. I'm really not capable in loving you, i know you're scared i know you're worried but still i ask you out everyday.

Ever since we broke up everyday you're still texting me worried that I'll do something stupid and worried that I can't get over everything. Sometimes I doesn't feel like replying cause chatting with you makes me miss you more. I know everything was real for the 73 days, it's unforgettable for me, you did everything you could, sacrifice every single thing you could just to see me for the 73 days. I was really touched at a few occasion, eg.( find me at garage, rush to see when i accident, went summit to see me play basketball on surprise) And I'm even proud enough to tell my friends that this girl really loves me and she's doing lots of things for me despite the relationship. 

You can cut off everything easily and faster than me because our love for each other is different. You cut it off cause you can't stand the pressure and fear. But I'm different, I always tell you that you can treat me as a friend. It doesn't means that I must love you until the end, is just that I need time to slowly control my feelings for you. I can't let go so easily because I have nothing behind my back to pressure me to stop this relationship, I put in all my heart and energy to our relationship although I know it won't work in the end. I hope you understand, I need time to slow down my feelings cause I love you for real too. As i know you really feel annoyed cause of me talking about feelings every time and every day. I admit it, I'm still childish although I'm thinking I'm mature, I'm not mature at all. 

Whether you're still reading this or not, I just want to tell you that I hope we are still friends. Hopefully the next time we talk or seeing each other I'll be grown up and not this childish little kid anymore. This will be the last post of me describing my feelings for you. It's enough, I know you heard enough of my feelings for you. I doesn't want to annoy you anymore, even I myself feels that I'm doing and saying a lot a lot of unnecessary things. 

I wish you happy in your life wholeheartedly. I just want to thank you for everything within the 73 days. It means a lot to me and this short period makes me know myself better and makes me want to improve myself more. If we really doesn't have to chance to talk or see each other anymore, I can only blame myself on my silly acts. Yes I can't blame you for how we met and what we did on first date, i fall for you too on the first sight. Just that if you still remember me in the future, please do not hesitate to find me. I will be there to support you as a friend. And the ring you gave me, I will keep it very well and wearing it everyday as a reminder for myself to be a better person. You need a break and you need some space to breathe, maybe you already totally lost respect to me as you said, I wouldn't have the courage to text you anymore, I can only wait until the day if you are willing to forgive me and be friends with me again. Wish everything will go smooth in your life, stay happy, stay positive, appreciate the one around you. Thank you for letting me being part of your life.

Day by day, hope your heart feels relieved